And I smile too. For after all that I have put in, aren't I entitled to at least a smile too? I can tell myself to be happy now. Well at least for now. I'm starting to feel more at peace recently. All the mess in me is beginning to alleviate from within, shaping into something more wholesome and sound. And I am thankful for everything that has become what it has become.

I don't really give much of a concern to anything else around me now. For what I have is totally inexplicable and surreal, and I am happy.