That sour feeling clumps up and creeps into my throat again. I really don't know anymore. I don't know if I have lost myself already or not. I don't know how to walk anymore, cos my legs feel horribly numb and my knees are giving way. In fact, I feel like my whole body's giving way.

Do I really know how it feels now? What is this whole thing all about now? I have put in a fair bit and sometimes just a single word would really make my day. But I'm really eaten up into this that I can't let go. I'll be that one who stands aside to take the blows but still remain standing, undaunted.