I've always been proud of practicing the things I have been preaching to my friends about what's wrong and what's right, until I found myself in a similar situation and I cannot help but to be utterly disappointed with myself. Many times, I was able to walk away and I've always thought that for my whole life, I've been blessed. Until recently when I guess I took it for granted. That was a grand mistake. There's so many things that I want to undo. Heaven help me. It gets harder and harder each day to fight my demons and to fight people in my life who encourage these demons to surface.

I dunno if there's hope anymore to claim back what I've lost. I'm still praying...