My last days in Singapore have been good to me. I'll fly off with a satisfied heart, because what I have yearned for, I have been given. I didn't ask for much. So that's enough for me. At least now I know how i feel and how she feels. Now I know at least where I stand. Whatever it is, I know we have come to good grounds. Best friends? Well maybe. It probably is the best we remain this way. I wish her well...

I seem to keep having to countdown to a moment of a lifetime my whole life. And for now, my next countdown is towards a certain part of my life where I push myself to a next level of education. But who's to know what i'm gonna do after that? The future seems rather cloudy to me.

It's 2 days after my ORD. No sound whatsoever. Thought I'd make this moment of a lifetime to use a little lunchtime celebration. Well I didn't in the end...

I am going insane with black thoughts stinging my brain.

JUST ONE OF THOSE DAYS WHEN YOU'VE GOT NO PLACE TO GO AND YOU FEEL ALL VOLCANIC INSIDE YOU FEEL THE BUILDING RUSH THE POWER TO PUSH WHATEVER THAT COMES INTO YOUR WAY HELLO! CAN'T YOU TELL MY BODY'S IN A SPELL IT'S GETTING QUIET COS THE WIND'S CHASING ME YOU RISE UP AND SCREAM A THUNDEROUS ROAR YOU BOLT LIKE A STEED WITH THE WORLD AT YOUR FEET...

I want to live
And run away from the thorned world
But there's no need to hide now
I'll stay and keep afloat
I want to see
How many skies will fall
And see the angels come tumbling with damaged wings
After all the search will never end
How does it feel
Now that you're born into this world
To face a myriad ghouls
That feed on your flesh
Poison your stomach with acid pleasantries
And leave you naked dying,
Rolling in pain
How does it feel?